The other morning, we were in a bind. Our childcare plans fell through and my Husband and I had to get to work- there was no flexibility. After a few phone calls, a family member came to the rescue and agreed to take Savannah for the day. Before we hung up the phone, the family member blurted out, "hey, why doesn't she spend the night. Bring clothes for tomorrow." So nonchalant. A little part of me was relieved because Savannah has been going through the dreaded 18-month sleep regression somethin' fierce! The other (majority) part of me felt like crying immediately after I hung up the phone and started packing her bag.
I felt guilty. I felt defeated. I felt ashamed.
I missed her already and I only just hung up the phone.
I dropped her off, we said our goodbyes, and it was off to work. All through the day I was thinking of things I needed to get done around the house and things I wanted to do, but didn't have time to because I'm usually with Savannah after work. After much deliberation, I asked my Husband if he wanted to grab a bite to eat- just the two of us! We sat at the bar, just like old times, and it was great! We could sit and enjoy our food in the company of each other without have to entertain and (likely) chase a toddler around the restaurant. We finished our meals and went home with the intent to watch a movie (something else we used to do in a past life). About 5 minutes into the movie, I fell asleep. I was asleep by 8 pm- a dream for a mother going through a sleep regression with a little one. However, this was not a normal sleep. I was EXHAUSTED. The house could have been on fire and I wouldn't have budged. It felt like all of my interrupted sleeps and late nights had caught up to me and my body knew I had the night "off".
As hard as it was to leave her and subconsciously "admit" that I needed a break, it was much needed! If you are lucky enough to have friends and family to help out (especially when they offer)- TAKE ADVANTAGE! It takes a strong Mother to accept and ask for help. I hope you are able to find time for yourselves this week. It's true what they say "It takes a village..."
Welcome to Moms in Harmony, I'm so glad you're here! My name is Meg and I'm a healthy lifestyle enthusiast, holistic advocate, wannabe blogger, Wife, and Mom trying to get the hang of it all. Kick off your flip flops and stay awhile!
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